Hello.
Actually i wanna sleep early but just now in the afternoon , after completing my homework , writing my agenda for this weekend and communicating with Edward i fall asleep .
About 1 or 2 hours of deep sleep.

Now i can truly understand how tired my parents were back home after a long day of work.

I will study harder. I promise :)

I don't know why nowadays i'm getting a bit too paranoid over some small matters ( not really small matters la, just try not to exaggerate )

I'm worried i cannot do very well this term.
I'm worried i cannot cope well with my school and student sem.
I'm worried i will fail my phase test next monday.
I'm worried i cannot be a good leader for student sem and PM2 .
I'm worried i will let my parents down.
I'm worried i will let Miss Eileen down.
I'm worried i cannot go to a good company for IA.
I'm worried i dont have enough time for everything.

I'm worried , i'm worried, i'm worried. :/

I cannot skip some classes , i cannot skip the meetings, i cannot do anything but move on.
Sometimes thinking about all these can really make me cry . I'm at the verge of crying.
I'm sick and tired of waking up so early in the morning.

But i don't have a choice right?

What should i do? What can i do ?

I need time.

This had been bugging me for the whole day and it is also the reason why I'm changing my blog link.

I don't want other people from my cohort people to read my blog. I know the reason is lame and you might be asking why?

Yesterday my trainer called me asking me why i didn't attend the community work thingy.
Then she said tons of stuff which i don't wish to elaborate because it will make her sound like she is so mean.
But there is a thing that i cannot stand it. She said that '' I thought that you busy till you are shock liao leh . ''

She said that i'm siao , you see.

DO YOU THINK I WANT TO BE THAT BUSY ?

PEOPLE ARE PUSHING WORK TO ME .

TEACHERS, PROJECTS , SCHOOL, TONS OF THEM .

TEACHERS ARE EXPECTING MORE FROM ME THIS YEAR.

Now you are calling me siao and said that i didn't attend all those stupid community work of yours . You make me feel that I'm irresponsible.

I have a life too . But now its all gone .
My life had been devoted to work and more work . I don't really have a life anymore. I don't have time for myself.

Worst of all i met sucky teachers that made me extra paranoid.

I had never been so worried and scare in my 17 years of living. Never.

Sorry people for such an emo post. -_-''''




Alright, not really a very emo post because i posted up Big bang's pic to lighten up the mood here.

What lao eh XD TOP :D

The more i see him the more i see the vampire boy from yin's class. LOL.

BYEBYE.

Go sleep liao .


P.S If you dont believe then i also cannot help you. But can you please dont come disturb me? I'm siao right ? Then dont talk to me . Dont read my blog.
I'm siao because of school.
Dont force me to the extend that i really go bonkers and start eating people.

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