The second day of school. Well, it was quite fun though meeting new subjects and teachers . But later on it didn't turn out really well. :((

Really sick and tired of this already , if you don't want to buy anything from me then just say you don't want do you have to buy my products and discriminate me ?
This is what happened, today i went to sell my products to my cpt department teachers. Some of them brought something and i am really grateful but there are two who doesn't really want to buy but they still brought it and somemore discriminate me. I don't know if i really deserve it or what . I am really not sure . I even send out emails to all of them to support me and i also write down my purpose of selling all these products . All these discriminating happens because i used a calculator . I know that my maths had always been weak but i really tried my best to improve it but i don't know why my brain just turn blank ( i am not trying to find excuses to defend myself because i don't see there is a need to ) and so i used a calculator to count . Then this particular teacher whom i hated him since last term because he have this mindset that girls will never do well in FFPS ( Fluid and flow process system ) and he just said that '' huh ? you cannot count ? how can you do that ? ''
Then the other teacher whom i just met her today as she is my new subject teacher , she taught me PTQA ( Protection testing and ... i forgot the name of it . It is too long liao ) and she said this when i was about to left the room '' Your maths is so lousy . How can you do business ? Aiyo'' I really felt like crying that time . Seriously serious . I don't know whats wrong with me , i thought that i had became stronger mentally and nothing can hurt me and yet i felt like crying that time . LOL. But i didn't cry out la , i kept saying endure sherlin endure sherlin .

So then i left the room and look for yin they all. I told them everything la . They said some teachers are like that de they think that they got alot of experiences and they just love to discriminate students . But what i think is that if you really think that you are so great and you really hate us ITE students then why do you want to come to ITE to teach us at the first place? We, ITE people are really having very low self-esteem already and yet you all these people come and say this thing to us and not supporting us, so then are you all called our teachers ?

I am really disappointed with myself and the two teachers . Really i do . I thought you wanted to buy because you want to let more student to benefit from this program but i don't really think that you are doing this with your true heart . I have to be very blunt now, if you really don't want to buy then don't buy nobody is forcing you . What i want to see people who are really wanting to do a part and help other people . Gosh, i am really speechless now .

I am so grateful towards low for helping me so much, she is still the best teacher among the CPT department . I don't know why people detest her . She never ever look down on anyone in ITE and she really believes that we can actually do better.
Plus my lovely twin ( the section head of CPT ) she also brought something . :)) I don't know why people said that i look like her . LOL. It all started with marvyn la , he said that my IC picture super look like her . LOL. HAHA.

Right now i am left with 4 sesame cubes and 1 milk tea . I will continue to sell everything out . I just want to do my part for the team . I don't want people to think that i am useless or something and i really want people to benefit in this program too . Humans minds, you will never know .

Anyway, the results are quite well already ( thats what low said ) , she said i had tried my best . But i don't think so leh . Nevermind, try harder tomorrow.
I really want to thank Nazih for buying the milk tea. Heng ah, i still got classmates who support me . :)) And of course YIN :))

Yin and my mother told me not to take it too hard , some people mouth just cannot shut up. Argh ! i just somehow think that i am letting myself down ah . Really dumb loh .

But i also am very fortunate to meet great friends who support me and my lovely low who gave me so much opportunities to let me excel . I don't know how to repay back her kindness . She is so kind to me . I am really worried that the teachers will gossip about her and think why is she sending this student ( me ) to this program as her maths really stinks and she doesn't have the potential to become a successful person or whatever.
Argh ! I really don't want this thing to happen loh.

And then my lovely low said that she is sending me to hainan for the volunteering work @ Sept for 2 weeks . I wonder if the cpt department will let me go or not . I really want to go and learn leh . Wat kao eh, why i so dumb ? And by the way, low want me to go for this, is because she want to help me apply for the don't know what scholarship thing . This program and the My first break will help me pass through the scholarship thing . Gosh, isn't she kind? Sometimes i felt that i don't really deserve all these kindness from her , i think i am a let down sometimes .

Low also told me before that she want me to prove to all the CPT department teachers that i am student who can excel and i deserve getting GPA 4 . And yes , i am going to prove to them .

I think right now the teachers will be thinking that '' huh ? she got GPA 4 ah ? is this a joke or something ?''

Alright , for those who had just read this post , i am going to tell you that i don't care what you said about me or whatever . :PP

By the way, i made a mistake on yesterday's post i thought the going to china one is for the IA but actually it is for the volunteering work . :))

I think hor , right now that teacher whom i just met today really had a bad impression with me liao . SHIT LA . But yin said that she still didn't know that i am the best student in the class . Well, i dont think i am the best . Even though i may be the best in other people eyes but not everyone . I am still a ITE student after all.

Alright, let talk about the new subjects :)) Something happier . :))

Today had PEQ lesson . Well, it is very interesting :)) PEQ means Process equipment . It is something to do with the pumps and erm equipment that is being used in the rig. It tells us why we need a pump and what is the function of the pump , etc ,etc . Alot of things to study . Really fun :)) The teacher said that the difficultly level for this subject is there but it can be easier then FFPS .LOL. Then my PEQ teacher said that this is the mostly on petrochemical thing. And she just came from jurong Island leh . She worked at jurong Island before . COOL !! Then she tell us that the petrochemical is more popular among the boys and the pharma is more popular among the girls . Then she also said that in the petrol industry , it is not really a glory industry because alot of people died and there are some accidents , etc ,etc . Really scary huh ? People die leh . What lao eh. But then she also said that of course must be careful la . LOL.
That is also the reason why we study OHS and EVT . It is the safety thingy . I still don't know what is the full name for the two subject but i will find out la . :))

Then today we also had PO1 practical . Summarize the things to the class about what low said yesterday . HAHA . LOL. And then later we are doing the Line tracing on the rig . FUN :))
And we also learn new symbol for each equipment . What lao eh, alot leh . The eyes go @.@ .
Anyway, it is still fun la .

Ken said that i had become crazier compared to last term . Come back from Taiwan crazy liao .HAHA. He funny la .:PP


byebye .


p.s That teacher siao liao loh , i am going to prove to her that i can do well . :pp

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