Yesterday night , had been chatting with my jie mei ( marvyn) about certain stuff . I don't want to mention it here due to privacy . It had been a long time i didn't chat with him, way long time since the day i went to Taiwan . Gosh, damn long huh ? But sometimes when i see him online i will say a hello or just do my own stuff.

I think i had been neglecting my friends . I don't know whats the reason of me doing something like that but sometimes i just don't feel like talking . I am not anti- social hor , but sometimes some feelings just struck you and made you do stuff that you will not normally do . Just like yesterday , i don't know whats wrong with me. I kept typing and typing ( in msn ) on how i felt and what are the changes and the bad times i had to marvyn . I want a listening ear . I really do. All those awful words , argh ! it is just unbearable . However , i have to carry on . Its life isn't it ? Life . What is life anyway ? Work ? Fun ? I am still seeking for the answer .

Yesterday afternoon before i went to see yani , i had gone through a serious thinking . Thinking about what i had done through out this month and what is the things i have changed. I think i had more and more becoming like low leh . Firm , strong and words are difficult to do any harm to me. Because i think life right now for me is not hard enough , i am prepared for the worst .
I'm scared though, but i still have to carry on. Agree ?


I think this is the longest and the most decent post i ever post after i am on my real holiday .


School starting soon . 3 days left .



P.S Not much free time .

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