Monday, June 16, 2008 ; ♥
I am very glad and relief that i finally can speak up my mind and my trainer knows who i am now . Phew , finally the huge burden is being taken off my shoulder . I felt at ease and i am able to talk properly .
I told alot of things to my trainer today because today we had a small chat at one of the meeting room. All the things are the things that i always wanted to tell from the very start of the program to someone from my cohort ( at least one ) to let them know me better but i just cant find someone who want to lend a listening ear as I'm afraid that they will think that i am boosting about myself .
Anyway, i will upload the pictures that i took at Taiwan when I'm free . So visit my blog everyday . No matter how busy i am i will still spend sometime to blog .
By the way,
MY COMPANY IS SELLING THE PRODUCTS THAT WE BROUGHT @ TAIWAN AT WOODLANDS MRT STATION THIS WEDNESDAY !! SO IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND , PLEASE DROP BY AND VISIT . YOU NO NEED TO BUY BUT AT LEAST GIVE ME THE SUPPORT , OKAY ? BUT I STILL HOPE YOU BUY LA.
HAHA :))
Well, after the chat with my trainer , i hope she understand why i cried like hell that night . Because i really hate letting people down and i have my own expectations of myself, i also think that i am letting myself down .
Plus , i will take away the barrier that is set between myself and the other students from the prestigious school .
I want to let all those people who had once look down on me ( especially me cousins ) to drop their eyes out and their glasses will crack whenever they heard of the things i did before and when they see my results . HAHA .
This is the thing that i didn't told my trainer just now actually i wanted to tell her this . Okay, i hope she see this post .
Okay, here goes ;
Actually , i do not hate and dislike all the students from the prestigious school , however, this indicent really make me change my point of view to them and thats why i set the barrier between me and them. I always think that there are some black sheeps among them who hate us ITE students alot but now i think that it is ALL OF THEM . Know why ? Because of my cousin . She is the cousin whom i really look up to and she is one year older then me and i really treat her like my elder sister . She and me are really really close and when we were young ,we lived together . Then later on she went in to express stream and i am in NT we got separated because i lived at woodlands and she lived at redhill . It had been years that we are not talking together . So then one day she came over to my house and i was so glad you know , so we are watching tv that time and it is a variety show on channel U called ''You are the one '' and i told her that one of the male contestant is my schoolmate which is from my school . Then you know what she said ? She said this '' HUH ? Your school one ah . No wonder so disgusting .''
At that moment , i really felt like giving her a punch right at her nose . BUT ! I cant do it , if i do it i am just bring myself down to her level . I am highly educated one and i will not do anything like that . I will just have to bear with it and prove to her wrong . By the way, she is from St. Andrews Junior college . In JC so what . It doesn't mean that you will get a job in future , you just only have a higher chance but it doesn't give you a guarantee .
So right now, i must learn the blue ocean thing . I must learn to transfer all the hate and anger into my work and motivate myself to be better . Hate is a very tiring thing . Really very tiring.
Okay, i still got alot to say but i think i just need time to think. HEHE . Alot of story you see . hehe.
One last thing before i go . Erm ,
dear yvfynn . Can you tell me how do you get to know my blog ?
Please tag in my CBOX whenever you visited my blog . Okay ? Thanks :))
And please tell me how you get to know my blog because if i didn't know i cannot sleep . HAHA. Okay, I'm joking . :))
Plus plus plus , i really regretted for crying in front of my mates in my room ( hotel ) , so paisei . I hardly cried in front of people actually . I am a strong woman . HAHA. And i agreed with pooja that crying = weakness . No matter how bad is the thing i will try not to cry .
Okay , end now .
TATA.
I told alot of things to my trainer today because today we had a small chat at one of the meeting room. All the things are the things that i always wanted to tell from the very start of the program to someone from my cohort ( at least one ) to let them know me better but i just cant find someone who want to lend a listening ear as I'm afraid that they will think that i am boosting about myself .
Anyway, i will upload the pictures that i took at Taiwan when I'm free . So visit my blog everyday . No matter how busy i am i will still spend sometime to blog .
By the way,
MY COMPANY IS SELLING THE PRODUCTS THAT WE BROUGHT @ TAIWAN AT WOODLANDS MRT STATION THIS WEDNESDAY !! SO IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND , PLEASE DROP BY AND VISIT . YOU NO NEED TO BUY BUT AT LEAST GIVE ME THE SUPPORT , OKAY ? BUT I STILL HOPE YOU BUY LA.
HAHA :))
Well, after the chat with my trainer , i hope she understand why i cried like hell that night . Because i really hate letting people down and i have my own expectations of myself, i also think that i am letting myself down .
Plus , i will take away the barrier that is set between myself and the other students from the prestigious school .
I want to let all those people who had once look down on me ( especially me cousins ) to drop their eyes out and their glasses will crack whenever they heard of the things i did before and when they see my results . HAHA .
This is the thing that i didn't told my trainer just now actually i wanted to tell her this . Okay, i hope she see this post .
Okay, here goes ;
Actually , i do not hate and dislike all the students from the prestigious school , however, this indicent really make me change my point of view to them and thats why i set the barrier between me and them. I always think that there are some black sheeps among them who hate us ITE students alot but now i think that it is ALL OF THEM . Know why ? Because of my cousin . She is the cousin whom i really look up to and she is one year older then me and i really treat her like my elder sister . She and me are really really close and when we were young ,we lived together . Then later on she went in to express stream and i am in NT we got separated because i lived at woodlands and she lived at redhill . It had been years that we are not talking together . So then one day she came over to my house and i was so glad you know , so we are watching tv that time and it is a variety show on channel U called ''You are the one '' and i told her that one of the male contestant is my schoolmate which is from my school . Then you know what she said ? She said this '' HUH ? Your school one ah . No wonder so disgusting .''
At that moment , i really felt like giving her a punch right at her nose . BUT ! I cant do it , if i do it i am just bring myself down to her level . I am highly educated one and i will not do anything like that . I will just have to bear with it and prove to her wrong . By the way, she is from St. Andrews Junior college . In JC so what . It doesn't mean that you will get a job in future , you just only have a higher chance but it doesn't give you a guarantee .
So right now, i must learn the blue ocean thing . I must learn to transfer all the hate and anger into my work and motivate myself to be better . Hate is a very tiring thing . Really very tiring.
Well, i don't want to be obsess in them . HAHA.And there is this sentence from a song ;
Love me , hate me its still an obsession .
Okay, i still got alot to say but i think i just need time to think. HEHE . Alot of story you see . hehe.
One last thing before i go . Erm ,
dear yvfynn . Can you tell me how do you get to know my blog ?
Please tag in my CBOX whenever you visited my blog . Okay ? Thanks :))
And please tell me how you get to know my blog because if i didn't know i cannot sleep . HAHA. Okay, I'm joking . :))
Plus plus plus , i really regretted for crying in front of my mates in my room ( hotel ) , so paisei . I hardly cried in front of people actually . I am a strong woman . HAHA. And i agreed with pooja that crying = weakness . No matter how bad is the thing i will try not to cry .
Okay , end now .
TATA.
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