I really really do hope that i can go back to my old life . The past , the past tense , etc ,etc .

I really really do hope that i have a time machine to go back to the past . I just sort of hating this already , teachers seems like picking on me , my results like shit , my busy life , i cant go to school tomorrow, etc ,etc .

You know why i said that teachers are like picking on me . The pic teacher la , tomorrow i cant go to school to take her fucking test right , because i got this Taiwan meeting thingy that forced me to attend and not go to school. Do you think i am that sort of person who will skip the test and go out for my own enjoyment ? NO RIGHT ? LOL. She thinks that i don't want to take her test ah . Siao . That time i told her before that i have to postpone her test due to this , however , she doesn't seem happy about it so therefore she suggest that i either take the test tomorrow morning before i go for the meeting or i take it today right after class when she haven't even finish the whole book and she expected me to test for the test on whole book . Got what i am trying to say ?

Then on last Friday she told me that i can take the test on Wednesday . I think it is low who told her about it and i don't know what low told her and right now she told me that my test paper will be different from the class who are taking tomorrow's . It will also be more difficult then theirs . Shit right? It can be different its okay , but why MORE DIFFICULT ? I think it must be equal right ? Not too easy or difficult at least same standard as the class ? Agree with me people ?

I don't know what to do now , my pic and ffps are like shit loh .
I don't understand a single thing . Then she told us that the pic and ffps are like brother and sisters , if you fail one of it you will fail the whole thing which means you will have to study the whole module for ffps and pic for the next term . Insane isn't it ?

May god really bless me , god ! you have to let me pass this ''period of darkness'' , its scary , its awful , its cold blooded .
Thank you god for helping me .

I don't know why i am like becoming more and more cold blooded , i mean like my life doesn't have anything else besides my work . I don't know what i am trying to say here , i mean i seems like lived for work and work and work . There is not much fun in live , no freedom , no shopping , no Starbucks . Its a very insane life you know . I don't want to be a workaholic .

And for your information , tomorrow meeting is actually studying not for FUN.
I don't have time for fun you know .





This is the time i have to stand firm and strong .
I can't be defeated so easily .
It is God's challenge for me .


Somehow i agree with what marvyn said . I am weak .

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