Regardless of whether it's right or wrong, remember that belief is what you work hard for.

Belief . Thats the key word for this sentence . Thanks winson . You enlighten me .
This sentence is actually at winson's msn nick. When i saw this sentence i was wondering why do i worked so hard for , for everything , for my parents , for my teachers and mostly for myself . Belief is what i wanted to achieve from my parents and teachers right ? For them to trust me . For them to have faith in me . For them to be proud of me even though i am a ITE student .

But now what i did now is it the way to repay their trust and faith in me ? No. I'm not . I'm scare , scare of falling apart without them by my side . Scare of not making through all this stuff. The most important factor is to believe myself . The faith in me. There are so many people , i mean my friends , family and even the teachers supporting me . I shouldn't be a chicken and chicken out right ? Instead , i have to do my very best on the second round of the ambassador . I had made it so far , i shouldn't just let it go . Right ?

I had a chat with winson just now . This is the conversation. I hope winson don't mind if i put this up. Because it is quite encouraging you might maybe found the light in your life when you read it . Okay, i am being emotional here , the CDC people can really influence people . LOL.

Well , it is only a part of the conversation .
Blue is winson . Black is me . LOL.

WIИSON says:
always rmb wad u want to achieve...
WIИSON says:
must have faith in urself
SLJH says:
okay, what i want to achieve
WIИSON says:
u're the guide
SLJH says:
thats what my teacher told me everytime
SLJH says:
when i say i dont want to do this or that because i am scared
WIИSON says:
lol, what are u scared of?
SLJH says:
scare of cannot make to the standard of what i want and what my teachers wants
SLJH says:
i am scare of letting people down
SLJH says:
you know
SLJH says:
i am so scare .
SLJH says:
i let my parents down once
SLJH says:
and i will never forget that for my whole life
SLJH says:
and thats how i ended up in ite
SLJH says:
being a NT students
WIИSON says:
if u're scared, u r letting them down alr
WIИSON says:
u know that right?
SLJH says:
for not studying better when i am pir 6
SLJH says:
yeah .
WIИSON says:
ya, so u shouldn't be scared
SLJH says:
but if i didnt make through the whole thing i will let them more down right ? or they will stand by me and say '' its okay sherlin. ''
WIИSON says:
which one do u prefer?
SLJH says:
i dont think they will do that .
SLJH says:
its okay sherlin la
SLJH says:
the part loh
WIИSON says:
bt if u gave up?
WIИSON says:
will they say if okay la sherlin?
WIИSON says:
it's*
SLJH says:
they will not even said that and they will scold me instead
WIИSON says:
ya la..
WIИSON says:
tell them at least u didn give up
WIИSON says:
and its gd enough
SLJH says:
okay , i get what you are trying to say already
WIИSON says:
bu yao dui bu qi zi ji jiu hao
WIИSON says:
i gtg for a while
SLJH says:
go for it right ?
SLJH says:
okay
WIИSON says:
yup
WIИSON says:
go for it
SLJH says:
thanks winson
WIИSON says:
wadeva u want to aim for
SLJH says:
byebye :)


Alright , i will go for it . Tried to speak up . Speak up speak up YO !



Okay, better now .

BYEBYE .


add ons :


The Bottom Line
You have a huge amount of strength -- so just go dig deep in order to find it.
In Detail
Today the challenges that you face are more mental than physical. You'll have to know what is right for you and stick to your plans. A good thing for you to remember is that you do have the strength to stay committed to what you want. You have a huge amount of strength inside of you, although you might have to go deep in order to find it! Time is on your side, so there is no need to push yourself too hard. Just take it slow, and you will make it!

Thats what i found in friendster just now . I hope everything is true . :))

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